blue yonder dreams

it's been an incredibly enjoyable week for me! let's do a rare break-down eh? it's going to be a looong post...

21st July 2006, Friday
went out with ernest, guosh, rison and tham to celebrate at seoul garden taka! guosh made a special concoction containing 6 different types of chilli and a variety of ice-cream topped up with sago-sago and forced it down my throat.
the mixture was totally disgusting, and i managed to down 3 full spoons before i nearly puked on every single last laughing one of them.
we went to swensen's at the crown prince after to just chill and hang loose. we found out that asking a waitress whether fiona xie had digitally enhanced assets was not the best way to strike a conversation. haha.. =)
22nd July 2006, Saturday
had to wake up early cause scsc held a family day event at the science centre, which was a total waste of time aside from the free meal we got, and of course the two cute ladies giving out fake tatoos. i got myself one on the underside of my left forearm, it's gone now of course but i kinda liked it while it lasted.

i was supposed to meet shufang in town but i got out early so i went over to her place instead to pick both the sisters up and head to town together. shufen went off to join her friends while shufang and myself went to breeks for lunch. spent the entire afternoon just chatting and walking around town with her. we found out more about each other even after knowing each other for 4 years plus.

my mum, sis and her boyfriend came to ps to have a family celebration in the evening. we had ramen at the japanese restaurant there. food was good, atmosphere was good, everything was good. tingyu called me up halfway during dinner to meet her at starbucks for a minute. i went down and there she was holding a small cake for me aww.. she told me couldn't make it for the dinner the next day so she got me a cake herself. that was thoughtful of you ms nah! i went back up to the restaurant to finish the dinner and my family presented me with the vcd set of (don't laugh) the champions! y'know the one starring fiona xie running along orchard with only a bikini on. i spent the rest of the week watching that show every night haha..

23rd July 2006, Sunday
xiao wen called me at 12 midnight and asked me to open my door. i did and the sight was beautiful. she had placed a tiramisu cake in a box and beside the cake was her bithday card accompanied by a ticket to the unxpected's concert. her handphone was also in the box, playing a recording of her singing happy birthday. i was totally stunned. so we went in, cut the cake and held a mini-celebration of sorts.

i woke up in the afternoon and rushed down to toa payoh to meet ben, jinchuan, shauna, shimin, suming, kaizhen and seow foong for lunch at suming's father's stall near sembawang. it's been such a long time since i saw them. every year, there'll be two celebrations lumped into one cause jinchuan's birthday is just 2 days after mine. we went over to shimin's place after the lunch and cut the cake there. the rest stayed on for mahjong but i had to rush off to...

meet feilong, junior, peipei and leonard for dinner at ikoi japanese restaurant. pock mun couldn't join us because he got confined for breaking an artillery lens. i wonder how in the world did he manage to do that.. it was a japanese buffet almost exactly like the one at hanabi. the food was excellent with free flow of all our favourite japanese dishes. i still can't really tell whether hanabi or ikoi is better, apprarently both restaurants are rivals. there was so much food till i think we got a little high drinking green tea..

24th July 2006, Monday
i went over to my grandad's place after work to have dinner with the family. kor kor adrian managed to take some time off his busy busy schedule to come down and join us. he told me about the university applications that i was currently attempting and gave me expert advice on how to choose which uni to go into. i still have much work and research to do, i didn't think applying into a uni had so many factors and considerations involved..

26th July 2006, Wednesday
i managed to knock off work early because we had some despatch to do. so alvin came along and we met dawn for dinner and drinks at bishan junction 8. once again it was frustrating looking for convenient outdoor areas because the law is just so damn biased. we went to olio cafe for dinner with the sun blazing down on us. in the end, we decided to shift to coffee bean instead. squeezed into the small allocated areas and, with the sun down, enjoyed a comfortable evening. dawn even bought a cake for me~! hee...

28th July 2006, Friday

met up with xiao wen in the evening. today's the unxpected's first soldout concert at the esplanade! we had dinner at the subway marina before heading into the concert studio. the setting and ambience was intimate. it was an entirely acoustic set so there was none of the unxpected's usual electric guitar filled songs that i was so used to. they played mostly their own songs for a change as well. i think the only cover they did was whole lotta love during the encore. i must say, their sounds are promising. the unxpected's a really tight band and their lyrics are mature. their songs are also versatile enough to allow them to show their talents and skills. after the concert ended, we went to the bay to chill for awhile before heading home.

29th July 2006, Saturday

today's another milestone. i met up with a primary school friend whom i had lost contact with for 12 years. we met up for dinner and watched a movie before heading to jurong and joining another primary school friend. we did a whole lot of catching up. hey there's lots to talk about after not seeing each other for over a decade. they have really changed, grown up and all. i ended up going back home only at 7am. totally shagged out but feeling happy. =)

well that pretty much sums up what i've been doing for the past week. congrats for getting through my longest post ever! and a big shout-out to all my friends and family who took time off to celebrate my 22nd birthday with me and drop me cute smses. it wouldn't have been memorable if it weren't for you guys..

bubble thoughts and scented candles

ash is such a sweet young thing. she and sid invited me out on sat and gave me a surprise birthday celebration. i first met up with sid at city hall because he claims he doesn't know the way to marina from the station. up till that time, i had absolutely no idea what they were planning. but sid sort of gave it away when he wished me happy birthday although t's not till next week. ash was late because of work so we decided to head down to carl's jr to chill while waiting for her. we saw caracal's drummer at carl's jr. he was probably going to attend the baybeats fest which was just at the esplanade. sid teased ash to no end when she arrived because supposedly ash has a thing for him. haha... =)

sid had to leave after dinner so it was down to ash and myself. before sid left however, he again claimed he didn't know the way back to the station from marina. that scheming little runt. it was actually a distraction 'cause ash wanted to get the cake. her pretext was that she needed to go touch up in the washroom. -_-"

after sid left, we decided to head down to the esplanade to check out the baybeats fest! big singapore names were performing this year, including west grand boulevard, electrico and astreal. we reached esplanade and decided to leave almost immediately. the place was too goddamn packed like you wouldn't believe. actually it was packed with a certain type of people but blogging it would mean getting my ass hauled into prison for racist remarks... oops! did i accidentally spill out something i was not supposed to? ;p

so we headed back to marina to check if we could catch a movie instead. hmm nothing there so maybe suntec? nope nothing there either. damn the cinemas in singapore has to improve it's movie screening selection. ash wanted to sit down after that cause of all the walking, plus she had been working the entire day. but that, again, was so she could pull out the cake and give me cute little presents! it was real sweet of her.. she bought mango cake (which i was craving for), gave me my childhood fav minties sweets ("it's moments like these you need" haha..) and a shirt from sahara club. all of it came in a cute little paper bag which has a hand-written message from her. aww..

we lighted only one candle cause the other one was mutated. it had two sides instead of one. then i made my wish, blew the candle and started gobbling up the cake. we forgot to grab a fork for the cake though. so imagine how messy it got. carl's jr style!

i sent ash home after cause her place got dangerous recently with people stalking girls and stuff. sid had already reached home by then so he came down to meet us (sid and ash stays at the same block). he bought a pile of pictures of both of them when they were younger (both of them attended the same sec sch). we had a ton of fun laughing and chatting at the void deck like a bunch of ah beng wannabes.

what can i say, it was one hell of a great night! =)

life for rent?

finally got round to returing dawn's shawl to her. it's been hanging around my room for the past 2 months collecting dust particles.

met up with her at causeway point, and went for some sushi cause i've been craving for it for a couple of days now. we were supposed to go sakae but then the queue was too long so we ended up at ichiban instead, which was perfectly fine cause ichiban serves better sushi anyway.

it was great catching up with dawn, she never fails to engage me with her thoughts whenever we chill. plus she's a great smoking kaki as well =) eh short, if you stayed nearer to me, i'd meet up with you just for fags!

this video's just for you dawn, hope you enjoy it~!

A tribute to my grandma

If I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up, it's not goodbye
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress.
Remember me, remember me.
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams.
Oh, I'll be with you, Oh Oh

6 years ago, I lost someone. She was so dear and close to my heart that no other living person can ever fill the void she left. That person watched over me ever since the day I came into this world. She taught me things that no one else can ever teach me. She showed me the kind of love that no one else can ever show me.

If I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up, don't ask why
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams

She showed me unconditional love. Real unconditional love. She never expected anything in return for all that she showed and gave to me. She stood by me through the toughest of my growing years. She was with me during my weakest times.

Oh Oh
Don't cry, I'm with you
Don't cry, I'm by your side
Don't cry, I'm with you
Don't cry, I'm by your side

We shared many moments together. Both good and bad. I was always so sure that whatever happened, it would turn out alright in the end because she was around to see it through. She brought with her assurance into my heart and sheltered me from the harsh realities of the world when I was still too young to be exposed to them.

And though my flesh is gone, whoa
I will still be with you at all times.
And though my body's gone, oh
I'll be there to comfort you at all times.
Oh, oh.

When she left, many in my family knew that we had lost someone very important. She was our pillar of strength and many of us looked toward her for that special guidance that only she can give. It's been a long 6 years and many things have happened since then. But every now and then, when I find myself lost, I still think back about the things that she said and I find wisdom in her words and the strength to carry on.

'Cause if I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry
And if I'm gone when you wake up, it's not goodbye
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress
Remember me, remember me
'Cause I'll be with you,
I'll be with you in your dreams, oh
I'll be with you
Oh, I'll be with you in your dreams
I'll be with you, I'll be with you

I believe that she still lives on in me. That whenever I remember her teachings, she's speaking to me in her own special way. I hope that in the short time that I was blessed with to be able to spend with her, I managed to bring happiness into her life as well. I know that I'm not the perfect grandchild she wanted me to be, but I hope that I did enough to make her smile.

I don't want you to cry and weep. Oh, oh.
I want you to go on living your life.
I'm not sleeping an endless sleep. Oh, oh.
It's in your heart you'll have all of our good times
Oh,oh, all of our good times, Oh, oh..... you have.

I'll be attending her memorial tomorrow. I wished that she was still here to guide me through the rest of my life. But I know that I would someday have to stand on my own two feet eventually. She has been called back to be with the Lord and I pray that she finds peace and happiness where she is right now. Mama, I will always love you...

'Cause if I'm gone when you wake up, please don't cry.
And if I'm gone when you wake up, it's not goodbye
Don't look back at this time
As a time of heartbreak and distress.
Remember me, remember me.
'Cause I'll be with you in your dreams.
Oh
I'll be with you in your dreams
I'll be with you
Oh
I'll be with you
I'll be with you in your dreams
I'll be with you in your dreams...

Hanson - With You In Your Dreams