wtf

damn photoshop guy developed the film instead of putting it to cd.. wat an IDIOT!!! somemore claim he told us already and film cannot transfer to cd, blah blah blah.. lame excuses. the outdated old man should go for a course to upgrade himself or something. somemore got the cheek to charge us $60++ for it... and dun provide photo album!! wat a complete ripoff.. now must go another shop to get it done. crapz..

in other news, i've officially ended my 2nd day at smi attending the intel spec course. bacially nothing but lectures these past 2 days.. but now's jus the easy part. starting next wk, the exercises will come and we might have to stay back late more often. still getting used to the new ppl and new system over there. cant wait to get back to scsc.. i only realised how luxurious that place really is after coming here. cant believe im back to eating cookhouse food again. i want my bread and teh peng...

4 wks remaining and counting down...

sound therapy

friday the 26th of august 2005.. ive been waiting for tis day for a pretty long time. why? cos electrico's performing at the esplanade! and wats more its the first time we had to pay to watch them. previous performances were mainly outdoors or in clubs.

i met up wid matthew, ernest and andrew to have dinner before the performace. then we headed to the recital studio at the esplanade to get the best seats. turns out they dun admit ppl until 2110 hrs. so we went to some shop selling movie collectibles and stuff to look ard. by the time we got back at 2111, a long queue had form. i cursed my bad luck tinking i should have waited instead of going off to see crap. but it was not so bad, we managed to get seats directly in front of the very pretty keyboardist. by that time, ernest's fren had joined us inside the studio.

the show started off wid amanda and william appearing. william proceeded to the drums to toggle some stuff on his mac while amanda picked up the mic and went into a beautiful rendition of her self-composed song. she sang in french. i didnt noe she could speak french. the rest of the band came out after the song and stared the acoustic set. the ambience was great.. lights flooded the stage changing from red to blue to orange depending on the mood of the song. plus the recital studio was considered quite small so there was a more personal feel towards the show. the acoustic set lasted about half an hour and then electrico switced to electric mode. daniel rocked the house down wid his silky guitar skills, william pounded on the drums, desmond was lookin oh-so-slick on the bass, amanda impressed with her skills... and beauty and david supplied the audience with vocals and laughs in between. familiar songs were heard and new ones were previewed. the songs for the 2nd album sounds exciting. absolutely cant wait for the album launch. the band came back wid an oasis cover during the encore before ending the show.

i went to chat wid amanda during the post-show session and asked her about the song she sang. she told me the song used sequences and would be on the 2nd album as well. took a photo wid her to cap the nite which will be posted on this blog as soon as i finish up the film. we went to a place called the wine company after dat to drink and chill.

oh yeah on the the way out of the esplanade, we saw roon's car. i tink she still has no idea who dat stalker guy is.. hahaha..

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classicshot
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we all miss u simon.. ...

lobo

actingsissy
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one very bored afternoon in scsc... tham, again, is the photographer.

destination or journey?

a few years back, i was asked by a very good fren of mine this question "which is more important to u - the journey or the destination?" i immediately answered the destination cos my tinking was dat it doesnt matter how u get there. wat matters is the fact that u got there. so i asked him the same question and he replied that the journey is more important to him. i asked why.. wat could be more important than the fact that u managed to achieve wat u were aiming for?

he told me the journey is more important because it leads to the destination. that in a way the journey defines the destination. cos if u are able to get wat u wan easily, u would not treasure it. but if u went thru hell to achieve something, it would mean a lot more to u. also the experience lies in the journey, not the destination. i tot abt his answer and understood wat he meant but still stood by my answer.

as the years went by, i realized that both of us are not wrong. the question has no rite or wrong. both the journey and the destination are important for wat are they without each other? i recently tot abt wat he said again and reflected upon my poly days. the journey would be the 3 years i spent in poly and the destination would be graduation, getting the diploma. both are equally important to me.

the diploma would be important for obvious reasons. the 3 years i spent in poly is important cos i had the time of my life there. lots of things happened in poly that i will never forget. all the late nite conversations singing abt life, the 'fun-filled' activities that was actually torture, crashing lectures and relationships. i learnt many things during my time there which will assist me as i walk thru life and im forever grateful for the frens dat walked wid me during the 3 years and are still continuing now.

i guess the same can be applied to life itself. many ppl go thru life without really experiencing it, taking everyday for granted and endlessly pursuing material goals. enjoy life! its a journey.. albeit with a defined destination.

needs

humans are such funny creatures.

doing duty last nite got me thinking.. why do some humans have the need to elevate themselves in front of others. these ppl tend to either over-exaggerate themselves or say things which completely did not happen. all this for the sake of being able to feel good abt themselves. all this for the sake of others to go "wah, u so good ah.. really did that ah.."

i guess most ppl would rather avoid toking to this particular group of ppl and simply label them as "tua kang". but put urself in their shoes and in their mind. im thinking these guys did not really have a fantastic childhood. thus their undying lust for attention. maybe as kids, they were ignored by the ppl ard them and i noe for a fact that every child needs his fare share of attention during those crucial growing up years. so they have a tendency to seek the attention that was stolen from them.

now instead of avoiding them, perhaps we should feel sorry for these guys and try to understand them. i mean how hard is it to jus stand there, nod away and drop the occasional "wah!" or "really?" while he rattles on. by simply doing that, these guys will be getting the attention they want and u would gotten another fren. not to mention they feel dat u understand them. now this is where u can make the changes in their lives. once they think that u understand them, they would be more open during conversations wid u and u would be able to slowly change the way they think.

its not gonna be easy thou and the changes are surely not gonna happen overnite. in fact its gonna take a pretty long time before the changes start coming. but thru a sustained effort, u can make a difference in someone else's lives.

sorry gotta go conduct first parade liao.

scsc + colin's sister

dxo2
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pics below are "borrowed" from roon!!

threesome

hey
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wid jon and roon @ dxo... u can see the effects of alcohol taking its toll

dxo nite

jonny
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we were feeling very gay at dxo..

larry

larry
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say hello to ssg larry

duty again

once again im doing my due share protecting the college from foreign invasion. since i started doing duty, i've been wondering exactly wat its purpose is. on paper, we're supposed to secure the place and patrol the grounds. but we dun really bother abt the patrolling. we basically jus sit in the office and rot our time away, occasionally getting up to unlock a few doors for those students who have totally NO LIFE at all.

if u look at the implications duty has on the ppl performing it, it actually creates a sort of divide within the college. there are bound to be ppl who simply refuse to contribute and will find ways and means to avoid doing duty. i dun blame these ppl for dat but a line has to be drawn when their actions affect others. by doing dat, their throwing their burden around and refusing to accept responsibility. one has to think abt how this mentality would project into their lives in the future. if, at such a young age, they are already sowing these seeds, imagine wat they would be like when the seeds are grown. i always believed that the person we become tmr is moulded by the decisions we make today. imagine the kind of person they would grow up to be.

down south

jus came back from wala wala. went to catch the unexpected there again tonight but.. the ladies didnt want to stay after the 1st set cos there was no seats! i had arranged for everyone to meet up specifically becos i wanted to catch the band. so we met up wid shimin, who had jus touched down half an hr before, and went to makan at the hor fun place instead. after dat we went to this place in alexandria called villa fungipani or something like dat. the place was nice, ambience was fantastic. had a sort of village outdoor setting. it was dark and there was a huge fan blowing directly at me which actually made me wana sleep. we ordered wine and caught up wid each other. its been such a long time since i met up wid them and seeing them again really felt good. i dunno why but whenever i meet up with my poly frens, i always feel so carefree like there's nothing in the world bothering me.

well the missus moved down to spore earlier in the week. finally moved after months of delibration and comtemplating. midweek she felt really home sick and was quite depressed. i jus wana tell her that its gonna be like this at the beginning. this is cos it takes time to get used to staying wid frens instead of family. things will get better as time goes by. also wana let her noe that she's not alone in spore. all her frens are here wid her and we'll always be there whenever u need us. plus dun forget a familiar voice is only but a phone's call away.

Cool

one of the better songs that's been played on the radio now.. it's climbing up fast on the charts for both power98 and perfect10. i tink it's a pretty deep song both lyrics and music-wise. they touch a part of me that brings back memories of my poly days, of the bittersweet innocence. those were the carefree days where nothing really seem to matter. i miss those days..

Gwen Stefani - Cool

It's hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right

And after all the obstacles
It's good to see you now with someone else
And it's such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain

Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we're still the same
After all that we've been through
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Yeah, I know we're cool

And I'll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we're hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we've been
I know we're cool
I know we're cool

Cool, yeah I know we're cool

You Knew

tham's model

thamsmodel
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we were fooling ard the audit a few weeks back when tham decided to use me as his model..

Bang Ko(c)k

i'm finally back from bangkok! after a very gruelling 5d4n tour of the city. spent most of the time walking and hunting for cheap stuff. but it has been one of the better places i've been to. the ppl there are friendly to say the least, not to forget they actually bother to wrap ur stuff properly when u buy them. not like from across the causeway.

lets run thru the events shall we? lemme see.. woke up early last wed to catch the morning flight to bangkok. we took valuair and since it's a budget airline, i expected the service to be crap. but they actually did quite well. the flight there was pretty empty so ppl were actually moving and changing seats during the flight. i went from a window seat near the front to an empty row near the back where i had all the space in the world to lift the seat handles and lay down to sleep. i mean how often do u get that!? the meals were cute. they served bread and cakes in a box. the only downside being we had to purchase our own soft drinks. but they had free coffee and tea so we made do wid jus dat la. haha..

so we arrived in bangkok ard 12pm and made our way to the hotel. we stayed at asia hotel which has a carabet show at the basement. so on the second nite, we went to watch the gays perform. the show was great. lighting, sound everything was very professionally done. and the transversites (yeah they had the complete package, boobs and all) were super pretty! there were both gays and transversites performing. u could see some of them haven actually gone for the sex change. im tinking the show would be something like a test for them to decide if they actually want to go for the change.

besides that, we visited the many night markets ard the city. on the first nite, we went to patpong and saw all the showgirls doing their poledances. we had people coming up to ask us to catch their tiger shows but i couldn't see any cos i was wid my family! argh! between patpong, suanlum and chatuchak, i would prefer suanlum any night. i noe many ppl would prefer chatuchak but i couldn't find anything there besides a pet shop which sells super cheap puppies. where else can u find a puppy dalmation for s$360?! dats including money for the box, documentation, doctor's gurantee and the puppy itself. we didnt get the puppy thou.. really wanted to but we had to stay till monday cos the clinics were closed during the wkends and we were leaving on sunday. suanlum had many things for me. found lots of clothes there and there's also a makan area for us to relax when our feet was killing us.

we also went on a half day city tour. our tour guide's name was tada. he brought us to many places including the boat tour of the chao phraya river. visited many temples and he told us a lot of history on the place. tada was also kind enough to book the tickets to the carabet show we went to. my dad forgot to tip him at the end thou haha..

my family spent a total of s$3,000 in bangkok. we're completely broke now.. but the trip was definately worth the money. eh i recce the city liao so if anyone wants to go bangkok next time, call me. friends only need apply.. i wanna go catch dat damned tiger show...

40 years

Happy 40th Birthday Singapore!!

it's national day again! time sure have passed fast. this time last year, i was still an innocent wide-eyed kid watching the parade not knowing what those shiny golden things on the soldiers' shoulders mean. a week later, i was off starting my national service journey. i've seen and learnt lots of things during the past year. and no matter how much i loathe serving, i gotta admit its taught me its fair share of life.

i was at dxo earlier drinking and basically making merry while waiting for the fireworks to start. its a national obsession i tell you. no matter how many times we've seen the fireworks, every single year on this day, thousands of singaporeans will gather at the parade venue to watch it. and the best part is they act as if they're seeing it for the first time in their lives. dxo at the esplanade is an excellent location to catch the fireworks this year. we were sitting at the balcony area and the works went off almost directly in front of us. it was like seeing an explosion of lights happening right in front of your face. simply beautiful!

roon took us back in her car after that and she told me of all the places that i've to visit when in bangkok. thanks for the heads up roon, i'll be sure to check those places out and bargain till they drop.. or i drop. which ever comes first! it's off to thailand for me tmr. i'll be gone from the 10th to the 14th. gonna go into a shopping frenzy there, go broke and eat bread for the rest of the month. catch ya guys when i'm back! adios!

elder voices

photos are wat's lacking here rite now.. im still trying to set up the account on flickr. also trying to find a photographer since i dun have a camera haha.. anyone kind enough to volunteer their services? or better still their nice little digital camera?

this wkend has been particularly mundane.. not much happenings but here's an update anyway.

- fri -
spent the nite in camp doing duty. jon forgot to indent the vehicle to pick the foreign officers up from the airport so there was a flurry of activity when one of them called to ask for his transportation back. everybody blur dunno wat to do cos we didnt expect them to be back until monday. jon had already booked out so he had to work from home to get the job done. nice lad he is.. too bad he might be leaving for taiwan soon on overseas attachment. i hope he doesn't go thou.. scsc really needs ppl like him ard. other than that, i spent some time editing the html codes for this blog. i keep thinking it needs to be revamped but can't seem to put my finger on wat..

- sat -
nigel's mum was kind enough to send me to dover station. spent the entire afternoon bumming at home, resting up from the nite's duty. went to momo later at nite. i expected more from the place. after all the hype and hoo-haa, quite a disappointment i must say. guess the i didnt really like the type of music played there. yes yes in case ur wondering, i'd much prefer dbl o's retro. was jus sitting ard the pool area watching ppl play and boozing the nite away. i could have sworn i was falling asleep in the club.

- sun -
went for dinner at sakae sushi causeway point wid wen. on the way back i saw an old man playing colin raye's love me. his rendition of the song was good. i had actually walked away but came back to see him when he started singing. two other guys were watching him play and they went up to compliment him before leaving. i'm too shy to talk to strangers so i jus dropped my coin and left. sent wen back to kranji and came back home after that.

jus downloaded james blunt's you're beautiful and i think they edited the song.. unless of course the original version goes something like "... she could see from my face that i was fucking high..."

wala wala

kicking back to some coldplay on the radio in the office on a friday nite is not exact a wet dream come true but it'll do nevertheless. its not i have any choice in the matter. found out only yesterday that im on duty today. apparently the duty roster in the office is not the updated version.

went to wala wala last nite wid a couple of my mates from scsc. the band that was playing yesterday came highly recommended by a friend of mine. and he could not be more right. the band's called the unexpected and i reckon they're gonna be quite a hit soon. the lead singer shirlene (i think dats her name.. didnt really catch it) has powerful vocals and i mean powerful. she has the whole alanis morissette feel to her singing which makes her oh so sexy. their drummer and guitarist is absolutely first-class. gotta go catch them perform again soon. by the way they're scheduled to perform at the esplanade on monday (8 aug) wid a special guest guitarist if any of u are interested. dun noe wat time thou.

the bravery's on at stadium green tonight and electrico's gonna be supporting them. instead of being there, im stuck here in college. ah well ill just take it as saf helping me save up some dough for my thailand trip next wk haha..

back to the old dashboard

after nearly 6 mths in the freezer, i've decided to bring this blog to the thaw. main reason being i dun wana harass all my friends with email whenever i publish a blog entry in friendster. other reason being simply i have more control in blogger.

jus finished major revamps to this site.. but its still under the works. still gonna touch-up some minor details first before it's up proper.